To lost friends - wherever they are

Over the last several years, say about 10, I've spent a lot of time online. I've spent time in chat rooms and had some fun. When I got married, a lot of that petered out, as I concentrated on my relationship with the spousal unit. We are monogamous, neither of us believes you can be in a relationship and still fuck around. At least it wouldn't work for either of us. If you can make it work, more power to you.

However, over that span of years that I mentioned I had met many people that I think I could have been very good friends with in real life. I met (and slept) with some of them and we got along fantastically.

When I got married and started to pull away from my online, sex-site addicted life, many of these acquaintances pulled away or moved on. But not these four guys, at least at first.

I've been married for some time now and even these guys have gone the way of the dodo, well I'm still in contact with one.

So I'm reaching out via this space, though I doubt any of them read (or even know about it) but what the heck.

TH: You were such a good friend, and I thought we would be friends for a long, long time. I know that we had hoped to eventually connect in-person. When you were down I was the one you reached out to. When you were in crisis mode, the same. As you were the person I reach out to when I was in similar situations. When I thought the SU was stepping out on me, I immediately spoke to you for re-assurance, while I waited for the SU to come home. And then suddenly, one day you were just gone. Your profiles have all disappeared, my emails go unasnwered, you never appear in any of im tools we frequented. I would love to know that you are alright and that you are healthy. I recently came across your boyfriends profile online, and he now lists as newly single. So I guess that means you guys are done. Maybe I should email him, (would that be weird?) to find out what the heck happened to you.

KW: We got along famously, perving together all the porn sites, we shared a common taste in men. Yes you lived half the country away and I did invite you to my wedding. You didn't come though you had assured me you would. The SU liked you and we enjoyed chatting with you and catching up but you too just disappeared one day. I do see you online from time to time but you no longer respond to me.

JW: We should have been soul mates but we live in different countries, you're married with kids and you can't give them up for me. Nor would I ask you to. But when we met it was fireworks. The day we spent at Jonespond was pure bliss for me. I could have walked on clouds. But then I met someone local and fell in-love. I'm happy and monogamous, it's the choice I've made. I just will say that I miss my friend and I hope that you are happy. Because I'm committed to the SU, I can no longer promise the retirement linai in either Florida or Hawaii, sorry my dear one.

HB: You are perhaps the only one that knew about this blog, though neither of us have been regular posters for a while. We still are in touch and we say hey from time to time. I remember fondly the times we spent together when we could lounge around naked together. Let me know when you are driving through Toronto again, maybe we can have lunch, if you schedule allows.

To my four friends, I miss you guys and wish you were still in my life but life does move on and it seems that we all have done so. Perhaps we'll meet again some day. Perhaps not.